The CEA marker was stable at 25, after discussion with Dr Kong, we will continue with the Alimta treatment, it give good quality of life, still has mileage and continue till the CT scan show tumor grow 25% larger, or CEA marker reach 40+ or I feel clinicaly worse. As everything goes, things are stable and I still feel good.
The next treatment will be Iressa, will go down to this option when Alimta does not work. This has skin irritation like pimple waist to head in most cases.
Thank You for your prayers. Next treatment is in 3 weeks.
Friday, October 30, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
26 Oct
Hi everyone, like to thank all for your prayers. Have been feeling better the last week. The cough is still around but it has been better, less of the cough till you're blue type. Have an Xray and Blood test on Wednesday, will see Dr Kong on Thursday afternoon (2pm). Pray for me that the current medication continues to work and the markers will show an improvement. Otherwise give me wisdom to accept the result and that the change in treatment will be the right one.
Like to share with you on what I read from the Jesuit reflection;
Serious Illness - Faith: In today’s Gospel, Jesus cured a woman who was seriously crippled for the past eighteen years. We should seek healing from Jesus more so when our illnesses are critical and when our sinful ways are habitual and deeply rooted. Trust in Our Lord’s power to heal and free us .
Thank You Jesus for being there with me and for sending me signs/messages of your love.
Like to share with you on what I read from the Jesuit reflection;
Serious Illness - Faith: In today’s Gospel, Jesus cured a woman who was seriously crippled for the past eighteen years. We should seek healing from Jesus more so when our illnesses are critical and when our sinful ways are habitual and deeply rooted. Trust in Our Lord’s power to heal and free us .
Thank You Jesus for being there with me and for sending me signs/messages of your love.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
21 Oct - Blessings
Source : Shalom Oct issue
Jesus praises those who live responsibly and they will be trusted with a great deal more. We will receive abundant blessings from God, if we put Him at the centre of our lives. Trust in Him and have courage; do not fear the pain and the price of living for Him and serving Him. God will judge each one of us personally according to our circumstances and according to the graces we have received. Each of us has a mission to fulfill in this life. We have to be faithful to this vocation to the end of our lives. We will be judged according to the fruits, which our efforts have done. God has given each of us many gifts and abundant blessings; they are not meant solely for our benefits, but also for others . Thus, we should use them to help bring love, peace and justice to the lives of others .
Jesus concludes His teaching with this consideration: “Everyone to whom much is given, of him will much be required; and of him to whom men commit much they will demand the more.”
How much has the Lord entrusted to us? How many graces has He conferred on others as a result of our lives? How many people are depending on my correspondence with grace?
Jesus praises those who live responsibly and they will be trusted with a great deal more. We will receive abundant blessings from God, if we put Him at the centre of our lives. Trust in Him and have courage; do not fear the pain and the price of living for Him and serving Him. God will judge each one of us personally according to our circumstances and according to the graces we have received. Each of us has a mission to fulfill in this life. We have to be faithful to this vocation to the end of our lives. We will be judged according to the fruits, which our efforts have done. God has given each of us many gifts and abundant blessings; they are not meant solely for our benefits, but also for others . Thus, we should use them to help bring love, peace and justice to the lives of others .
Jesus concludes His teaching with this consideration: “Everyone to whom much is given, of him will much be required; and of him to whom men commit much they will demand the more.”
How much has the Lord entrusted to us? How many graces has He conferred on others as a result of our lives? How many people are depending on my correspondence with grace?
Saturday, October 10, 2009
10 Oct
Reflecting this week what has happened, drawn from the events that has happened. Let me give you a rundown. last Sunday was the monthly pilgrim follow-up. It was the 21st session, Fr T. closed the session by reminding us to go back to the pilgrimage book, read through it again a check if we had done what we wrote, inspired by God's grace then. Going back and reclaiming the grace that God had given and acting on the plans we have made. During the CER retreat and silent retreat and the recent Lourdes pilgrimage, came away with several things that was inspired to do and live my life, it was consistent with the pilgrimage, however I had been inconsistent in acting, working it in my life. Done some religiously, some quite consistent but not all the time and some others have slipped. Then the CT scan results yesterday showed that recently the cancer cells have started to grow again. Last night we had rosary in our home and a neighbour brought a DVD titled "The Polished Arrow" narrated by Jeff Cavin. He talked about making ourselves, transformed and by God's grace/miracle into a polish arrow in the quiver that God can use us to do his work. When the arrow is drawn, it is going to hit the mark and not return empty handed. Many of us think we are ready, I did too till last night, but are we singluarly focussed with a totally straight shaft( our life) with all the imperfections removed/cut, sanded, polished and in clear alignment with the head of the arrow (Jesus).
Key message is that praying and wanting to do God's work is not enough, I need to roll up my sleeve and start taking active part in removing the distractions,the other priority, the sins, the envy, the worldly goals to have what others have, to achieve the status etc that is making me go in many directions and not the one singular direction of moving / heading closer to God. I realised that I need to start pruning and be persistent even when it is difficult and or succumb to seemingly acceptable imperfections.
I believe that the wake-up call yesterday was to starting on a new stage, doing/acting on God's direction. The last 9 months was a time of grace that He had shown His power that he can heal, the cells reduced and everything was on status quo. It was comforting since things were improving and stable. Easy to say God is here acting in my life when thing are going well Now I have to place my Trust in God and His Providence, and know he is still there when the canacer cells are growing. like the incident when the apostles in the boat during the storm and Jesus was sleeping, they tried all their human knowhow and called on Jesus to wake up and take action. They did not have enough Faith. To them though prsent, Jesus was sleeping and not taking action to do what we ask to fix the storm. Time to roll-up my sleeve and take active role to work on cleaning-up and heading to God.
I thank the people who follow this blog and pray for me. You are all my angels and living saints, I ask that you continue to pray for me and my family as we start on this new chapter and I know that God will always be there with us. Just have to be strong in Faith and trust God is there next to me.
Key message is that praying and wanting to do God's work is not enough, I need to roll up my sleeve and start taking active part in removing the distractions,the other priority, the sins, the envy, the worldly goals to have what others have, to achieve the status etc that is making me go in many directions and not the one singular direction of moving / heading closer to God. I realised that I need to start pruning and be persistent even when it is difficult and or succumb to seemingly acceptable imperfections.
I believe that the wake-up call yesterday was to starting on a new stage, doing/acting on God's direction. The last 9 months was a time of grace that He had shown His power that he can heal, the cells reduced and everything was on status quo. It was comforting since things were improving and stable. Easy to say God is here acting in my life when thing are going well Now I have to place my Trust in God and His Providence, and know he is still there when the canacer cells are growing. like the incident when the apostles in the boat during the storm and Jesus was sleeping, they tried all their human knowhow and called on Jesus to wake up and take action. They did not have enough Faith. To them though prsent, Jesus was sleeping and not taking action to do what we ask to fix the storm. Time to roll-up my sleeve and take active role to work on cleaning-up and heading to God.
I thank the people who follow this blog and pray for me. You are all my angels and living saints, I ask that you continue to pray for me and my family as we start on this new chapter and I know that God will always be there with us. Just have to be strong in Faith and trust God is there next to me.
Friday, October 9, 2009
9 Oct
Got the result of the scans today. News is not good, The MRI show no change, the tumor in the head is stable and unchanged. However the CT scan show that there is some growth in the lungs. The main tumor mass has grown a little, since the last scan in August. Question now is do we stay with Alimta or change to oral medication. Decided to do one more round of Alimta today and go back to the multi-vitamins. I had stopped the multivitamins for 2 weeks. Well the Lord has his ways. Was trying to make a decision on the options given Alimta+Avastin or oral, however we all agreed (Jo, Rose and myself) that do one round of Alimta and check the result in 3 weeks. if the CEA marker goes up, them we have to change medication but if it does not then we are ok. At least it gives us 3 weeks to pray for direction and not make it now on our own. Anyway, i believe that the decision made today was guided by the Holy Spirit.
Pray for us that we will make the right choice and also that the results in 3 weeks can be a 'miracle'. This is a time of testing and we have often said to Trust in God and we now must put it into action. will update again. Thanks.
Pray for us that we will make the right choice and also that the results in 3 weeks can be a 'miracle'. This is a time of testing and we have often said to Trust in God and we now must put it into action. will update again. Thanks.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
8 Oct
Had my review with Dr Kong, the blood test result wasn't too good. The cancer markers had a jump upwards. The CEA was 26.1, it had been hovering in the 16 to 18 ranges for the last few cycles. the CA12 and CA15.3 also went up. All other blood test were ok, the white blood cell was slightly low. He ordered a CT scan of the lungs and liver, with a MRI for the head this afternoon. Will review the results on Friday afternoon at 1.30pm with him. No chemo today. It was a long afternoon waiting for the test to be done. It was all done at 4.30pm. Jo was there the whole tim, she must have been tired. I love her for being her.
The cough was intermittent today but still coughing but not the sort that leave you breathless. Thank God.
Did anyone of you red the daily meditation 'the Word among us' for today? let me give you a flavour of it, What is faith if it isn't teamed with trust and persistence?.....When God does not give us our request right away, ...... He knows that persistance we truly appeciate what we receive but in building us up in holiness and faith......
Father as I persist in prayer and obedience, pour out your Spirit on me to form me after the image of your Son, Jesus.
Will update the review tomorrow, in the meantime, put Jo and myself in your prayers tonight. Thank You.
The cough was intermittent today but still coughing but not the sort that leave you breathless. Thank God.
Did anyone of you red the daily meditation 'the Word among us' for today? let me give you a flavour of it, What is faith if it isn't teamed with trust and persistence?.....When God does not give us our request right away, ...... He knows that persistance we truly appeciate what we receive but in building us up in holiness and faith......
Father as I persist in prayer and obedience, pour out your Spirit on me to form me after the image of your Son, Jesus.
Will update the review tomorrow, in the meantime, put Jo and myself in your prayers tonight. Thank You.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
7 Oct
Hello everyone. i went for my routine blood test this morning, will see the result tomorrow when I see Dr. Kong at 11am. I pray that the test result is stable and even improved. The blood test is only indicative and not absolute, only a CT scan can tell. Prayers always help, and it will give me the peace of mind. Thank You.
Will be hosting the October neighbourhood rosary in my home today and tomorrow, likely Friday too if there are no volunteers. Welcome to come join us to pray the Rosary, starts at 8.30pm (Block 319,#05-14). today is the feast of Our Lady of the Rosary(Lk 1:26b-32,34-35,38)Today’s Gospel, Mary says, “Let God’s Will happen to me!” The Rosary meditations are on the mysteries of Christ’s life, death and resurrection. Let us ponder on them daily and allow God’s Truth and Will to penetrate into our hearts. How is God challenging you today?
Shalom
Will be hosting the October neighbourhood rosary in my home today and tomorrow, likely Friday too if there are no volunteers. Welcome to come join us to pray the Rosary, starts at 8.30pm (Block 319,#05-14). today is the feast of Our Lady of the Rosary(Lk 1:26b-32,34-35,38)Today’s Gospel, Mary says, “Let God’s Will happen to me!” The Rosary meditations are on the mysteries of Christ’s life, death and resurrection. Let us ponder on them daily and allow God’s Truth and Will to penetrate into our hearts. How is God challenging you today?
Shalom
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