results of my review

No matter how hopeless or weak we may be Jesus is ever ready to bring His healing love, hope, and encouragement to us and to all peoples. Pray for the grace to increase your trust in God’s Compassionate Justice.

I went for my Bi-monthly blood test, together with a CT scan of the lungs and liver and a MRI of my brain yesterday morning. The doctor's review wasn't scheduled till Tuesday but since the results was ready and the doctor's schedule wasn't pack I managed to see him in the late morning.

He listened to the lungs and it was clear.
The CT scan results compared against the scan done more than 6 months ago was very positive. There were clear visible signs of reductions. He estimates it to be about 70%.
The MRI of the brain, showed that the original 2 spots had reduced and there were no signs of inflammation, but the radiologist hilited some new not well defined spots in the frontal lobe. Not to worry about them since I an not having any headaches or loss of balance. We will continue to watch and monitor.
The blood test results was marginal, the CEA markers had gone up a little, 10.2 from 8.8 two months ago. besides this all results are positive and the Iressa tablets is doing it's work. This 10.2 is a far cry from the 40.9 and 31.3 the chemo and Alimta days.
He shared that studies on Iressa statistically works for about 7 to 10 months and it's effectiveness was be reduced. However he had patients that been on it for more than 2 years. He would like to continue to monitor more closely over the next few months, the cancer markers and probably MRI. Next visit will be on 17 August.
As for the cough; it is much better with the Fluimucil, only small bits of phlegm get lodged in the throat which causes me to cough and clear the throat.

I still believe that God will show me the way and that I will trust in Him. Don't want to tell God what to do or prescribe to Him what I expect. Jo asked me a tough question couple of times this week; 'How do you Feel?' My answer has been neutral, I am not sad or disappointed, I don't feel any particular reaction. Should I bee feeling happy or joyous? maybe I should. But I do know that My Father in heaven loves me and I keep my faith in Him. However I should work on it harder like the prompting I have shared lately in this blog from Matthew's gospel. I ask that you keep Jo, Gerard, Brian, Nicole and myself in your prayers and that we will be steadfast, strongly trust and rejoice in Him Promise.

like to share this reflection that I received;
Do you need proof that God is helping you?

"Jesus, we want to see a sign from you."
The scribes and Pharisees in today's Gospel reading(Matt 12:38-42) wanted proof that God's power was at work in their world. We want it, too. We ask God to do something and then start looking for evidence that our prayers are being answered. When we intercede for others, we hope that soon we'll hear good news from them. Our prayer requests are usually accompanied by a desire for proof that God has heard us and cares and is doing something to make life better.
But Jesus said, "An evil and unfaithful age is eager for a sign!" He's not implying that it's a sin to want signs. Often, God does give us signs; it's one of the ways he communicates his will to us. The sin occurs when we distrust him, eager for a sign that would give proof that he loves us and cares – instead of trusting in his goodness and compassion.
How many times do we entrust a person or situation over to God and then nothing happens? The problem often seems to get worse, right? Remember this: God never ignores us nor abandons us. The answer to prayer is usually a process. While we wait, God invites us to trust him more. He wants us to choose to remember that he does truly care and that he is turning everything into an ultimate good in which we – and others – will benefit.
The only proof we need of God's love is that Jesus died for us. The only proof we need that God has the power and the desire to redeem even the worst situations of our lives is the resurrection of Jesus. This is what Jesus meant when he referred to the sign of Jonah.
When you ask God for help and then don't see evidence that anything has changed for the better, does your asking become more intense? Do you start begging and pleading? Yeah, I often feel that way, too. And when God still doesn't provide proof, we get frustrated, and then we get angry.
However, we're not really angry at God. What we're angry at is our limited idea of who God is. The "God" we're mad at is a false god, an incomplete god, a distorted image of the true God.
We need to learn more about who God really is. We need to look at the crucifix and recall what he did for us. If Jesus was willing to suffer so painfully and die for us, will he not do everything else that we need from him? If the Father loves us so much that he resurrected Jesus from death so that we could go with him to heaven, will he not also give us every blessing that we need here on earth?
Think of how you feel when you're pleading with God. This is how God feels, too! Look at today's first reading. Here, God is the one who's doing the begging. What is he yearning to receive from us? Only that we do what is right and to love goodness, and to walk humbly with him. Will you answer HIS prayer today?
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